Mistakes

As is human nature, we will sometimes do things that are...well, stupid. We will sometimes make mistakes. Some small, some not so small. Its just one of those things that we go through in life - to learn you've got to do some stupid things. Otherwise how will we know that we have use something like a tea towel to get something out of the oven?

Sometimes, however, we do really stupid things. I have a friend who is a nurse and some of the patients she gets in sometimes amaze me. Some people do things, seemingly not caring about their safety or health. And for the longest time I thought how insane and stupid they were to do such things.

But then I realised. I was one of those stupid people.

Last year, something happened I got extremely angry with myself. So, in my anger, I decided the best way to release it was to punch the wall. Three times. The wall, it was fine. Nothing happened to the wall. My hand, though...my third Metacarpophalangeal joint (otherwise known as my 3rd knuckle) got damaged. It was swollen, bruised and the skin had scraped off which, according to the internet, means it was likely fractured.

I didn't go to the hospital to treat it, despite the fact I was in so much pain I couldn't move my hand. Bad move. I've hit various things (for example, my old chair with a wooden backing) and each time I did that the same thing happened: it got swollen and bruised.

Yesterday I knocked it on my door by accident. And the results were instantaneous  It got swollen and sore. It was only a slight knock. That made me, the idiot, angry with myself of how much I'd damaged my hand over the last year that I hit it again.

I have issues with anger, and also with hitting thing. I've been working on it, and yesterday was the first time I did something like that in almost five months - quite a feat for me.

The point is, sometimes we do very stupid things in life. Some is riding a skateboard with no protection. Others is getting angry and punching the wall several times which has most likely caused irreversible damage to my hand. But its okay. We all make mistakes in life. None of us really know how we're supposed to be living, it's all done through trial and error. And it that's how we learn.

I, for one, have realised that my hand is very much messed up now. And I hope you have all learned in this post that if you want to punch something, punch your bed. Even my doctor told me we all need a release...but just do it on a soft surface (which I will also try to do).